Today i felt a “call from nature”. I decided to stop with the excuses that it is too cold (10 below zero), took my warmer clothes and shoes, ready to go out.
It’s been a long time i don’t take a walk in the forest. And even with all frozen lakes, plants, silence, because there are so few birds now, i saw a shade of beauty, of divine..
Moments like this makes me feel alive, inspired, strong, ready for fight again. Ready to handle this winter blues with a new strength..
I may not be strong enough to walk on ice right now, but i will be strong enough to defeat these winter blues symptoms ;p.. After all i have been through in my life, this is the least i expect from myself.
This is some photos i took in my morning walk here in Arvidsjaur. Hope you enjoy it as much as i do 😉
Don’t ever be afraid of a new adventure in your life,
don’t ever be afraid to show your vulnerability,
that doesn’t make you weaker
it makes you stronger
Sail away, navigator,
in your own adventure,
to discover who you really are
and remember, leave the Ego behind..
Weak are the ones that don’t want to make a change in their life, although they have all the tools to do it, but they choose to ignore it. They think they are not strong. They don’t want to disappoint others, so they end up disappointing themselves, getting stuck in a life situation they keep saying they don’t deserve.
Strong are the ones who take a step up and recognizes what is wrong with themselves, search for help and keep on taking care of themselves. So they continue to grow, to move forward.
Once i was weak, but some time ago, ibecame strong. I took a step up and searched for help for my depression. Even though i don’t talk so much about it to people around me, i write and try to learn more about it, through inspiring bloggers and lecturers. Because i still feel there is a lot of lack of credibility given to people with mental issues.
Today i am even stronger. I dare to show my emotions in a healthy and respectfull way, to show who i really am. I found strategies to deal with my emotions.
I dared to sail away in the dark, into the unknown, with the light shining inside of me. I droped all my fears and worries in the wide ocean before my trip.
Where this trip will take me, it doesn’t really matter..as long as i always search for a star, the moon on the horizon and find a lighthouse, so they can show me the way..as long as i have God in my heart, i trust everything will be as He wishes..and everything will be alright..
p.s. When i mention adventure, is in a metaphorical way, a journey that begins with introspection. The real adventure is to find out and learn about yourself, where you need to act, or change, in order to improve.
Om, or pronounced Aum, connects you with the primary source, the Universe in you.
I “sing” over Om when i feel disconnected.. It helps me go through stress and find balance again.
The result is that sometimes i feel so zen that i could walk in the streets spreading my joy as an innocent child. Probably some would say i look crazy or with the head in the moon, looking at the sky instead of looking at the buildings, listening to the birds instead of listening to the traffic, looking at the flowers instead of looking at the cars that drives by, don’t being afraid to sometimes smile at people that dare to look at me..
When i loose contact with myself, i want always to go back to the source, to this pure unity.
But not so often as i wished, i feel zen. Because “reality” is most of the times a pretty good check-out: throughout daily distractions/challenges from life; when i see bad news on tv, some hopeless commercials (not all!!), when i see hate and envy in humanity..
I wonder why can’t i see people more often do something kind to another on tv or other information sources, for a change? Spreading more inspiration, good values and education, love.. instead of most of the times, trying to sell happiness in unhealthy ways… showing chaos and bad news..My mood would continue “in the zone” for a longer time.
If people would also stop competing so hard with each other, for each others attention..People would be so much happier, finding out that happiness does not need to be bought all the time, to be compared.. We can buy some happy moments for a while, but the truly happiness is inside of all us, waiting for us to be open to receive it.
That seems like an ideal world, i know. A world free of chains from the past, from the future. A world focusing on love, kindness and respect. I think that if that world exists inside of me, why can’t i see it ALL around me?..Why i have to face disappointment? That leads me to nothing but sadness, actually. I can’t even be angry anymore. But i choose to not be depressed either. I feel sad and then let it go, hoping humanity will change Sometime…
You may think i am being really naive..BUT If everybody was in the same tune, as the sound of the Universe, we would all find our little paradise on earth wherever we go in this world..
Maybe some questions aren’t supposed to be answered..Maybe they are supposed to remain a mystery, hidden in the silence, hidden in the song of the universe..
You have all heard before the expression: “Home is where your heart is”.
It took me a long time before i understood this meaning and really found home.
For me home is not only our daily four walls where we sleep, or being close to our lovely family. Is a place in the world we choose to live and identify ourselves with.
For example, i always felt pulled to nature. I NEED to have water close to me, because it is my element.
Nature brings harmony and peace to my spirit. It makes me feel whole and at home, closer to God..
Going home is climbing a mountain, being in contact with water, hearing birds singing, being surrounded by threes…
For some people home can be a city, because they enjoy the variety of sounds and vibrations, lovely parks, colors in the buildings, diversity in the architecture, lifestyle and so on. For others, maybe a small town, with almost untouched nature around it.
I am sure that we are all a part of nature, that is why we feel dragged to it and connect. If you think you are not a nature person, challenge yourself and start spending more time around nature, and you will notice a change.